September 2011
1 post
Topic: Dolled up.
I don’t think I ever received the memo about “effortless perfection.” At least not about clothing. I’ve heard it mentioned maybe once or twice, but I never gave it serious thought until now. I have, however, noticed that unlike other campuses that I’ve visited, Williams surprisingly dresses very casually.
It’s incredibly peculiar for me - as someone who hails...
July 2011
1 post
Topic: Horses, little kids, cheese, and feeling...
Despite not having posted for over 3 months(?) or so, I just realized that more people are following my blogs. I’m a little bemused/confused as to how that happened, but I’m glad that people still find this interesting.
So…there’s a lot of catching up to do. First off - I have officially completed one year of academic study at Williams. Yay! I think I may have found my...
March 2011
1 post
Topic: Enjoying life.
It’s very easy as a busy college student to forget about the bigger picture and to focus on the little details instead: receiving less than an ideal score, writing an essay that’s due in 2 hours, catching up on readings that have been neglected for weeks. There’s always something to be done and not enough time to do it. At least that’s how I used to think.
It’s true...
February 2011
2 posts
Topic: Reflections again.
It’s very easy to forget that a year ago, I was beginning my second phase of chemotherapy. (Yay cycles 7-14!) Sometimes even now I forget that I had cancer. Maybe it’s because I’ve conformed to “life” as most people know it: studying, sleeping, eating, hanging out with friends, having fun. I don’t talk about it and people don’t ask about it. When the...
Topic: (Mini) Update.
I finally put the dress I bought in New York with Emile to good use this last weekend at the Winter Gala. The dress does personify me to some extent - it’s certainly girly with its black lace and fuchsia ribbon. But appearances are just appearances.
Anyways, as part of the Winter Gala festivities, various activities went on in addition to the usual dance party - arts, crafts, belly...
December 2010
2 posts
Topic: Home?
So I’m back in Cali, which is surprisingly…cold. Despite having survived 15 degree weather in Williamstown, I still think 50 degree in norcal is cold. How weird is that? I thought that I’d be able to walk around in just a tank top and flip flops like usual, but I’m still in the same winter garb I wore in Williamstown. I definitely was not a Spartan in any one of my past...
Topic: Ramblings (because I am in need of some...
Today is my last day of freedom. At least before I continue part 2 of my two-week study concentration camp. Viola recital (this Sunday), English paper (next Monday), Leadership Studies paper (Wednesday), Chinese Oral (Wednesday), English exam (Thursday morning), Chinese exam (Thursday afternoon), ART HISTORY (Friday morning).
If I didn’t have Art History, I wouldn’t be freaking out...
November 2010
1 post
Topic: Content.
So midterms finally came back - and while I didn’t do perfectly, I’m pretty pleased with the results. I spent a lot of time on Art History; I wasn’t too sure what it’d be like since I’d never taken this subject before, so I pored over the slides and readings for hours on end. I was so paranoid that I even compiled a 20+pages study guide. In the end all that hard work...
October 2010
2 posts
notmydaughteryoubitch asked: LAURICE!
I love you a lot! I hope that Williams is treating you right, and you're not being too mean to any of the boys there ;)
Have a fabulous day! I miss you a lot <3
I love you a lot! I hope that Williams is treating you right, and you're not being too mean to any of the boys there ;)
Have a fabulous day! I miss you a lot <3
Topic: You never get rid of the past.
Sometimes I can’t let go of my anger. I guess it finally hit me that a year has passed and that my friends have moved on with their lives. But I haven’t.
I’m still stuck in last year.
I struggle to tell people what it feels like, coming back to Williams. Yes, it’s pure joy. But I hadn’t realized until now that there’s also a lot of sadness and bitterness and...
September 2010
1 post
Topic: At Williams.
There’s too much to be said about what it’s like to come back. I think the only word that can somewhat sum up my feelings is: WOW.
It mostly feels surreal. Sometimes I feel like I need to pinch the building because it doesn’t look real enough to me. I have this overwhelming desire to touch everything I see because I don’t trust what I’m seeing.
I LOVE. LOVE. LOVE....
August 2010
4 posts
Topic: Biking, sewing, and whatnot.
There’s a lovely biking trail between San Ramon and Danville. I think it’s at least 10 miles one-way, but the distance doesn’t seem that far when on bike. My aunt, sister, mom, and I have only tried 2-3 miles of it (although it was actually a round trip of 4-6 miles), but we were there for less than an hour as it was close to night. It’s an easy path too - gravel and flat....
Topic: On the job.
Haha, it’s funny how involved I’ve become with student organizations, even though I haven’t even set foot on campus yet. Besides being on the food committee, I’m the new subscriptions manager for the Record (the Williams newspaper). I don’t write articles, but I manage everything subscriptions-related at the paper. It’s actually a fun job, at least to me,...
Topic: Shadows.
It turned out to be a red herring. But we all expected much worse.
Our lives froze after we received the call. It sounded as though it came back, despite all of our efforts. I was mostly in shock. And after the initial numbness wore off, all I could do was worry.
I don’t know how to describe how serious it was. Actually, I don’t know how I can express just how serious it became to...
Subject: No. No. NO. NO. NO! →
July 2010
2 posts
Topic: Summer Nights (part 1).
I know I meant to write about all my summer adventures, but frankly…nothing much happened until now. Just kidding.
I guess quite a bit has happened since I came back to LA (3 weeks ago?). But even now, I still can’t get over how odd it is to have my “old” life back. Besides the (mainly) congratulatory responses I’ve heard from friends and acquaintances, there have been several interesting...
600petiteclocks-deactivated2011 asked: Hi! I'm a fellow Troy student (going to be a senior this year! :D) and I just want to congratulate you on finishing your treatment. It must have been indescribably difficult, and I truly respect you for your resilience and your current optimism. This really is a new start, I think, and I wish you the very best in the world!
June 2010
1 post
Topic: Beauty.
I’ve mostly gotten used to how I look - sans hair, eyebrows, and eyelashes. It feels so natural now that sometimes I think that this is the way it’s always been. Lately, I’ve caught myself staring into the mirror, trying to picture myself with hair again. It usually doesn’t work…I have to look at old pictures to remember what I used to look like.
It’s an even...